Monday, June 18, 2012

Another child in Heaven, another miscarriage.

(Please forgive lack of space between paragraphs, not sure what's up with blogger these days). Almost as soon as we found out that we had co-created another sweet little soul, she was gone. I discovered Thursday morning that we were pregnant. Not to give out crazy details, but we were merely looking out for any returning signs of fertility (if you will), and David and I had been praying about what God wanted for our family for many weeks. God's answer to us? "Trust" ... don't you love that? So we were not shocked to discover that we were pregnant, and we were happy to see our family grow!! We were actually less overwhelmed at the thought of 4 than when we were preparing for 3... it all becomes a fabulous little circus when #3 arrives, right? So (as we tend to do) we began to tell right away. After returning from a friend's house Friday night, I discovered that I was loosing the pregnancy. It is now Monday morning, and our hearts are heavy. I so often tell people, when promoting Natural Family Planning, that GOD can space your children if you, as a couple, allow Him to do so- through prayer and trust. If you recall a similar situation occurred in November of 2010 before Jacob. Therese and this baby would have been 16 months apart, but instead, God meant for our family on Earth to have Jacob. And so it is again, He means to have another soul in Heaven praying for us. If you are wondering why I said "she was gone" it is because we believe that, through prayer, God allows us (and desire for us) to know the identity of these sweet souls. Our first miscarriage we named Andrew. Our latest one? Agnes Karolina ( Agnes is Bl. Mother Theresa's birth name and Karol is Bl. John Paul 2's birth name). We are sad, but more importantly we are grateful to have know that we were pregnant in the first place (I would have thought that it was simply my cycle returning). Thank you, Lord that we were made aware that You had allowed us, yet again, to be co-creators with You!! "The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord." Job 1:21 "Everything is grace." - St. Therese

7 comments:

geauxcory said...

Love You!! Again, I am so amazed and thankful for your trust and faith! Through your heartache, I am positive others will be lead to Christ because of your shining example of trust in Him.

Erin B. said...

So sorry for your loss, Kate. Beautifully written tribute to your unborn child. Keeping you and your beautiful family in my thoughts and prayers. Hope you have a beautiful day.

KD said...

Thank you for shining such a beautiful light on trust in God and the healing power of suffering. Thank you for being such a beautiful example to others.

Haley said...

Kate- so sorry for your loss. Your positive attitude and trust in the Lord are truly an inspiration to me!

Erin Franco said...

Kate and David...I'm so sorry for your loss. Just spending the weekend with you guys a few weeks ago brings the grief and beauty of your post and this news to my heart. You are a beautiful, down-to-earth, God-centered family loved and respected by everyone you know. Thank you for the ministry of your own honesty and trustful surrender to divine providence. I love you guys. :)

Lena ~ JOYfilled family said...

i understand the heart ache that resonates from a miscarriage, having had five losses myself. sadly, it seems to get more difficult each time. yet, it is a sweet gift from above that drawers me closer to Him.

i pray for your continued healing and peace.

bl. mother teresa & bl. pope john paul II ~ orate pro nobis

Anonymous said...

May I please use this picture? It is perfect - we miscarried our baby yesterday. Thank you!